Losing battle

I wake up every morning with good intentions. Really I do!
Like today I woke up packed a healthy breakfast and lunch. Then it happens, I walk into work and donuts. I try to be strong but I fail. I grab a choc. covered donut and head for my office. I eat it without tasting it. It's gone and then comes the guilt. Why did I eat it? I knew I had good food packed. I think about throwing up...then I think screw it I'll just keep packing on the pounds who cares. Then I remember I can do this! I will start again with lunch good choices. Push the water.
UGH----this is a losing battle in more ways than one. Losing lbs and Losing motivation and Losing focus alot. 
I am strong. I am going to do this....................for ME!